07/09/2004 at 8:10 P.M.

Today to be honest, I struggled a bit. We had a wonderful visit by the W.R. baseball team at the ICU this afternoon. Many of the boys have been long time friends of Jess. It was so wonderful to feel their concern, their love and their energy. I wanted Jess to look up from behind the glass door and wave hello to them. Those strong boys made me yearn even more for my once a day hug from Jess. I miss his smile so much. I know in time those hugs will come. As they say we have bad days to realize and appreciate the good days. As for Jess, he struggled also a little today. Worn out from all the positive responses we think. Tomorrow we wake to another day and a choice to keep up the positive wonderful thoughts and feelings or to let our emotions and ego control our day. I know which one we will choose....join us!