10/25/04 at 7:00 p.m.

Jess and I had a good day on Sunday. He seemed to connect with all of the things I was asking him to do. He lifted his left arm 5 times for me (from the elbow to his hand). He tried so hard to move his legs and wiggle his toes. He also watched me stick my tongue out at him (which I would have never allowed) and now I so want him to do the same. He was able to put his tongue outside of his front teeth. We all cried, clapped and watched him put so much energy into these small movements. These are what they call "purposeful movements"....very important because the brain is responding to a command. Today I sat behind him and watched as he held his head on his own for a couple of minutes and was able to turn it so slightly to the left. Each day I just ask God to please let him connect to another part of his body...to please help him to remember that his body is strong. I see in his eyes that he doesn't understand why it is so hard to move or why he can't talk to me. Sometimes he gets so frustrated he just closes his eyes and then peaks out the corner of his eyes to see if I am still there. We take so much for granted.

I made the mistake of requesting all of his medical records from St. Al's. So much of the first two months are such a blur, I hoped to find some positive information to help us understand what is happening inside Jess' brain. I quickly realized and remembered I should just stay with my knowing that he will recover in his own time and that the facts are unimportant. It is what it is. So, we have some good positive movements and we await another good day. Jess is listening to Deepak Chopra's Quantum Healing. I recommend it to everyone. He also listens to Mozart, Beethoven, Native Indian music, meditation music and of course Rap, R&B and Maroon 5. Our days are full and our prayers are never ending.