January 28th, 2006

They finally hooked me up with a computer in the apartment. It will be nice for the next client staying here! We only have 3 more days until we leave. I can't wait to get home but I will miss the green grass, roses and walks in the sunshine. The weekends are tough. I only have Jess to talk to and he just looks at me with those big beautiful blue eyes like a puppy dog saying "it will be okay mom". I blink three times at him to say "I love you, Jess" and he blinks three times back. We seem to find a wonderful way to communicate with the animals we love that cannot speak our language and we can all find a special way to communicate with Jess. He needs that more than anything.

Jess is not a lot different from the way he was two months ago. He does swallow better, track with his eyes better and hold his head up better. Chris and I learned a few new things here. One thing we learned which we didn't really want to face is...there is not a quick fix for Jess. We found out that we are doing probably more for him than any place in the world could do. We verified we have a wonderful team of professionals at home that are doing just as well or better than any professionals we could find. We know it is important to be surrounded by people that love you, support you and have strong shoulders when you are in a traumatice situation like we have endured for the last year and 8 months. We still do not know where Jess will be in a month, a year or 10 years in his recovery. But, at least now I can stop feeling like we are missing a key piece of the puzzle. Only God and Jess can put that piece back. We will continue to get as much therapy as we can and as they have told us here...repetition, repetition, repetition. And, we need to continue to subject Jess to his life before the to help him remember who he was. He needs all the familiar faces and voices and places to stir up those neurons.

Crystal and I had a good cry last night...she and Samantha have been so good to us while we were here. It takes a special person to do what they do especially at their young age. When you need good loving people around you, they just seem to show up. We wish them the best in their lives. We thank everyone who has worked with us here. It is a great facility and all of the people here are very special and caring individuals to do what they do. There are many people in our same situation in this world. Why? I just don't know.